Although no one really reads these texts post.
March 31, 2014
I was looking at my post from right when I started posting, and even though it was hard for me back then it makes me happy to see it now. I was reminiscing today of how I felt back then, how then it felt like it was all there was and all I could think about. Like it was never going to change at all. Then, I think of who I am now, where I am, and how I feel. It couldn’t be more different. Everything I felt before was just some distant past that lead me to where I am supposed to be right now.
Of course, I know I will probably feel the way I did last year again sometime in my life, since that was also not the first time, but does it matter? It sucks in the moment, but look where I am now. I would never wish it on myself again or anyone else, but it makes me realize how far we can come. How much better it can get.
All those times I though I would never be able to do something, and now I am going way past that. It is really amazing what can happening in time.
I guess there is no point to this except for my future self to read it again. Which, in reality, is pretty much what my whole blog is I think. But hey, who cares! Maybe the future me reading this will be so happy and right like I am now, but maybe they will not be.
And if they are not, you’ll get through this. Whatever it happens to be. Don’t be afraid to be happy.
You don’t have to be unhappy just because happiness is too much of a hassle. Or because you don’t know where to look. Or for any reason.
You’ll find it. All of you, just don’t give up.